no title (dated 2.27.07)

My head isn't understanding
What my heart keeps fighting for.
Nothing makes sense.
Nothing.
I can't be strong for us anymore.

It's hard to control.
Myself.
My life.
My breathing.
I love you.
So easy for you to ignore.
Let me go, let yourself go.
Please just let yourself fall.
I can't be strong for us anymore.

The tears, the pain, the hurt.
I keep searching for answers
That will never exist.
That never have.
God help me before I no longer exist.
My feet can't feel the floor.
I'm about to explode.
I can't be strong.
Not for you.
Not for me.
Not for anyone,
Anything,
Anymore.